Words from the North Fork of the Elkhorn

Greetings from the north fork. Its been a few days since my first post. When I started, I wanted to have sort of a nightly post but I have found that I am far to lethargic and uninteresting to warrant a new post every day… and I don’t think anyone is reading so far. Solution — Post something that directly pertains to people!

So here I sit… wondering what to write that would both be important to me, and important to people that would possibly be interested in reading. While commentating on Conan’s latest twitter, or talking about how big a Prima-Donna Michael Bay is and how he is ruining Transformers with racist urinating robots would certainly be interesting to myself, I find it hard to believe that would drive readership of this fledgling page.

Something that has certainly proven itself important for me was all of the relationships I have developed over the past year in Lincoln. The people i have had the pleasure to meet and get to know are so completely awesome that, being away from the vast majority of them has thrown me into sort of a slump. That slump only made worse by the fact that I have no money to make any sort of pilgrimage to Lincoln to see everyone.

Its not that I don’t have friends here in Norfolk, quite the contrary, I have a list of people who I have to hang out with and whatnot. So what is the difference… why do I feel so lonely here in Norfolk when I have plenty of people I haven’t seen in about 10 months, compared to only a few people who I haven’t seen for only about a month.

The difference between the two groups is simple… Ive lived along side these people from lincoln for 9 months, rather than just simply go to the same school…

They arent any better or worse, I just seem to have become closer to these people… thank you…

Greetings from the North Fork, this is my first post, so I feel it warrants some explanation of just what I am trying to do here. First off, I need a space to develop this writing skill that I feel has suddenly, more or less, been dealt to me. I also need a place to cleanse, a spot to shake off all of the gunk, good and bad, that I acquire as I roll through this day to day existence that I have come to call life. I fear that I may say too much, open up too much, it is a risk I feel necessary for this talent to grow and mature. On a more personal level, the risk is exciting, to share the things I think about with the few people who may or may not take the time to read this.

 Let me be fred with you reader, (I would have said frank but where is the fun in that) everyone you come across in life wears a mask, the saying is cliche I realize but the reason it is so overused and cliche is that it is effective, and you know what “they” say, if it isn’t broke, don’t fix it. The truth about masks is, I am no different than anyone around, I too wear a mask. I’m introverted in my own personal opinion, I like to be by myself. I’m not a large fan of parties and large gatherings, but I go when invited, I prefer to share time with a single other person rather than be in a large group, but you will forever find me surrounded by people. I find myself being this way as sort of a defense mechanism, to… fit in? If that is the right word for it… I guess its one of those things that I don’t quite understand. Its not that i feel that I am being less genuine by doing the exact opposite of what I prefer, because Im still the same person when in a large group or at a party, Im just more like myself when in more of a personal setting. Maybe thats true for everyone though?

I guess what I am trying to say is that my goal with this… *sigh* “Tumblr blog thing” is to create an environ that people I know… people who know me… people in general can more effectively get inside my head and see what I am seeing. I want to share the huge feelings about everything that develop in this brutish oversized body of mine. I want to share my happiness, sadness, anger, passion, confusion, and understanding with you reader, and through this sharing maybe you will know me better.

I want people to know the things I know, the truth I see around me every day, the undeniable and profound, the workings of the world and the mechanizations of the soul.

That sounds good for now, Ill write more later i guess…